(After a whopping 1.5 years langouring on other blogs.)

Looking at my old posts marked March, 2007 – I sounded so troubled. And I do recall March 2007 as if it were yesterday; all my worries about heading 4 Council projects, YLS, doing Choir SYF and IB German exams culmulating into a heap of stress. I remember praying with Uncle Robbie after cell for God to provide me with strength to tide through the ‘Long March’ (haha, history pun!). In retrospect, I would have told the Old Me to ‘chillax, lepak, sit one corner relax lah!” because I would have pulled through that insane period anyhow with God’s grace.

I have almost forgotten what the feeling of academic stress (or rigour, for that matter) feels like after almost 9 months of neuro-inactivity. But soon, I will experience it again.

Yes, in exactly TEN (10. 1-0. T-E-N. ZEHN.) DAYS I will be leaving on a jetplane and heading to New York for my undergraduate studies. Yup, in the past year my life has been throwned about and shaped very dramatically in a whole whirlwind of events and one of those was God opening a door for me to head to Cornell on a gahment scholarship. Which is indeed a blessing for my family and I because I wouldn’t have been able or willing to fork out that load of moolah (which is ALOT, especially for private universities such as the Ivies, all these money-syphoning ivory towers!).

And I’m pretty delighted about the bond period cos the job scope seems very much attuned to what I like, so hopefully it stays that way when I come out. The seniors and mentors I have come into contact with are amazing, spontaneous and really enthusiastic about their job in the organisation so it makes me feel really assured that I would be equally challenged and excited! Which once again I need to thank God for His amazing provision cos it’s really hard to get a scholarship, an education and a job which is fits perfectly with your personality. Prayer really works, this I testify! =)

Anyhow, I have woken up the past few days feeling pretty antsy. Bracing myself for leaving the nest and settling abroad for the next 4 years. My mum and dad’s taking it pretty hard though, me being their only child and all. Quite worried for them. Please keep my family in prayer.

This entry is so bittersweet, I would like to engage all of you in the amazing range of courses Cornell offers (from the funny to the ridiculous) but I think I’ll save that for another entry. But let me give you a sample – for our freshmen writing seminar, we choose from 100+ different courses and there’s one called “Of BullShit” where we examine deception in literature and FBI case studies.

And there’s Bhangra night during Orientation week, bahbeey!

I hope all this hustle bustle would help me take my mind off missing home, cos I think I would, I really would. But it’ll be okay, I’ll be fine cos my Father is with me. =)

It’s been resounding in my head…this song.

Everything seems to be slipping out of control. I’m sorry I can’t hold on to everything now. I’ll get you back. And you. And you. And You.